Sorry for the long long break in posting. There’s been a lot going on in my life recently. But meanwhile, I found this post I started writing a few months ago. It’s not great, but it’s something interesting to think about.
If you’re anything like me, you’ll be familiar with the horrible habit of procrastinating.
(Also, if you’re like me, you’ll have read the title and thought that we were talking about Twenty One Pilots. Sorry. Not today. (lol))
Recently, I’ve found myself in a terrible slump. I don’t want to read, I don’t want to write, and I constantly feel like it’s not the right time to do something. I’ve discovered this new form of procrastination which I think is a derivative of me thinking that great things can only happen on special days.
This doesn’t meant that I’m going to do something great, instead this is me even procrastinating ouver the little things. I think, “I want to buy this laptop, but today is just not right. it’s a Tuesday, and the weather is foggy, and even though I know I have the money, I don’t want to make such an important decision after only about ten hours of research and two hours of comparing models and prices.”
In the course I’m currently taking on student success, it talks about figuring out how to overcome procrastination, starting by identifying why you procrastinate. I looked at the list and related to some of them, but this was the one kind that wasn’t included on there. It’s the kind where you’re afraid to start because great things don’t happen in this day and century.
I keep telling myself “Not Today” because today is not yesterday, and yesterday was the day when great things happened. It was the day when revolutions were started, the day peace was won, the day when heroes saved the world. Me, wanting to buy a laptop, or publishing a book, cannot compare with these great moments of history, because today is nothing like then.
but then I realise that once upon a time, yesterday was a today. Did Thomas Jefferson say “I’m not going to write the declaration of independence today because yesterday was when the Magna Carta was signed, when Magellan circumnavigated the globe”?
I want to do something great, I want to make a difference, but if I can’t even go on doing something simple with this in my mind, there’s no way I’ll be able to one day publish a book or complete my college education.
So I’m gonna need to remind myself that today can be a day when history is made. Sure, no one is going to remember the tiny decisions that I made, decisions that won’t really impact anyone around me, but it’s going to be practice for the day when I really do something great.