Not too long ago (ok. It was a while ago) I wrote a post about my guy friends. Entitled “boy friend“, I asked why can’t it be the social norm for guys and girls to just be friends.
It was inspired by my growing friendship with my one coworker–a really cool guy who I would stay up late snapchatting because we had a lot in common and therefore a lot to talk about. I had been starting to develop a crush on him, but I wasn’t certain if it was romantic or platonic. But one thing was for sure, I loved him as a friend, and even though we had only been talking for a week, I was willing to call him my best friend.
When writing my post, I remembered every time someone has insisted me and a guy friend should be together, which fueled my rant.
But not too long after writing that post, everything changed. I was convinced I no longer had any feelings for my friend besides the ones of friendship, but when he told me he liked me as more than a friend, I realised I had been lying to myself.
Now, after over three months of dating my best friend, I’ve looked back to see if I would change anything that I said in that post. To tell you the truth, I won’t change it. I meant everything I said. Nothing should be inherently romantic about guys and girls being friends, just like there isn’t anything inherently romantic about girls and girls or guys and guys being friends.
However, there’s one thing I must add. There’s nothing wrong if that ever changes and romance replaces the platonic.
After all, I wouldn’t have a boyfriend if I didn’t at first have a boy friend.
Sorry for the long long break in posting. There’s been a lot going on in my life recently. But meanwhile, I found this post I started writing a few months ago. It’s not great, but it’s something interesting to think about.
If you’re anything like me, you’ll be familiar with the horrible habit of procrastinating.
(Also, if you’re like me, you’ll have read the title and thought that we were talking about Twenty One Pilots. Sorry. Not today. (lol))
Recently, I’ve found myself in a terrible slump. I don’t want to read, I don’t want to write, and I constantly feel like it’s not the right time to do something. I’ve discovered this new form of procrastination which I think is a derivative of me thinking that great things can only happen on special days.
This doesn’t meant that I’m going to do something great, instead this is me even procrastinating ouver the little things. I think, “I want to buy this laptop, but today is just not right. it’s a Tuesday, and the weather is foggy, and even though I know I have the money, I don’t want to make such an important decision after only about ten hours of research and two hours of comparing models and prices.”
In the course I’m currently taking on student success, it talks about figuring out how to overcome procrastination, starting by identifying why you procrastinate. I looked at the list and related to some of them, but this was the one kind that wasn’t included on there. It’s the kind where you’re afraid to start because great things don’t happen in this day and century.
I keep telling myself “Not Today” because today is not yesterday, and yesterday was the day when great things happened. It was the day when revolutions were started, the day peace was won, the day when heroes saved the world. Me, wanting to buy a laptop, or publishing a book, cannot compare with these great moments of history, because today is nothing like then.
but then I realise that once upon a time, yesterday was a today. Did Thomas Jefferson say “I’m not going to write the declaration of independence today because yesterday was when the Magna Carta was signed, when Magellan circumnavigated the globe”?
I want to do something great, I want to make a difference, but if I can’t even go on doing something simple with this in my mind, there’s no way I’ll be able to one day publish a book or complete my college education.
So I’m gonna need to remind myself that today can be a day when history is made. Sure, no one is going to remember the tiny decisions that I made, decisions that won’t really impact anyone around me, but it’s going to be practice for the day when I really do something great.
I was going through my phone and found this poem that I wrote a few months ago after watching Forrest Gump for the first time. While it’s not my favorite movie, something just resonated inside of me while watching it and I felt that I needed a reminder that when I get out there in the world and finally leave my home, that I don’t return to what I want to leave behind.
I left out a few of the lines, and at some point I’m going to try to rewrite it, because I need to put these feelings into words, and this doesn’t feel perfect yet.
thank you for reading my attempt at poetry. Maybe you liked it, maybe you didn’t, but what matters is that I shared it.
My mother always told me it was a good thing to have friends that were guys, but up until a few years ago, I never had one.
Long story short, I made a guy friend and immediately people assumed we had feelings for each other. Girl friends would say we were perfect for each other, and relatives would offer not-so-subtle comments that they wouldn’t mind this friend as a son/grandson-in-law.
And that’s not the only time it’s happened. I mention a guy friend and the first thing people ask is “do you like him?” I talk to a guy and a friend says we’d be “cute”. I mention having a platonic crush and a “friend” starts making jokes about having babies with him.
What is it about this world that makes romance the default for male/female interaction?
What makes a platonic guy/girl relationship so foreign to friends and relatives? The world in general?
No one thinks it’s weird when I say I love my girl friends. No one says I’m obsessed when I’m up until 3 am texting a female. No one has suspicions when I go somewhere with a girl.
I️ understand propriety comes into the equation and requires there to be a few limitations, but if that was the only problem, I wouldn’t be writing this post.
I want to tell my best friend I love him. I want to stay up late talking about deep, important things. I want people to assume when I go somewhere with him that we’re friends and not a couple.
I don’t want to date my guy friends. Often it doesn’t even cross my mind until a romantically inclined friend mentions it and throws me for a loophole. I start to wonder if since that’s what everyone is thinking that it should be what I think.
When can platonic be the default?
When will the world realize friendship is the best relationship out there?
Is it too much to ask for a boy friend instead of a boyfriend?
At first I thought it was scary. I suddenly had all these responsibilities and all these privileges, I hardly knew what to do. But it’s also really exciting. Childhood is over and, while I still have many mistakes left to make, my life is really just starting.
And since music really speaks to me, I decided to share this playlist I made a while back with a few songs that describe the mixed feelings about adulthood that I’ve had this past year.
Here’s the playlist, and if you scroll down, I wrote down the reasons that I put each song on the playlist.
College Kids by Relient K–I added this song to the playlist when I was feeling a lot of pressure from my family (and myself) to start my college education even though I wasn’t 100% certain of what I wanted to do.
Stressed Out by Twenty One Pilots--of course there’s a tøp song I really identified with this song a couple months back when adulthood was looming but not quite here yet. I just wanted to be a kid again.
Hall of Fame by The Script–“you can be the greatest, you can be the best…” I like the theme of this song, telling you that you can be anything.
The Middle by Jimmy Eat World–This has always been one of my favorites, but the line “just be yourself, it doesn’t matter if it’s good enough for someone else” describes the lesson I’ve learned that I have to be my own person and not live up to other’s expectations. .
Back Home by Owl City–I may be taking a new path, but I do have a home, whether it be a physical building, the people who are close to me, or the memories that will always stay with me.
House of Gold by Twenty One Pilots–this song just makes me feel happy, though it’s a little sad if you pay attention to the lyrics.
It’s Not Right for You by The Script–“you’ve got one life to love what you do” This inspired me when I decided what I wanted to study for college.
On Top of the World by Imagine Dragons–this past year has been a high point and this song makes me feel like it’s never going to end.
Best Day of My Life by American Authors–this song is my happy song. I️ hear it once and the rest of my day cannot be ruined.
Luck by American Authors–this song also makes me happy, and reminds me that I don’t have to do what everyone wants me to do.
Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan–once again, a happy sounding song that’s kinda depressing. I’m not 100% certain why I added this song.
The Nights by Avicii–This song encourages me to live while I’m young, cause I don’t want to have regrets when I’m older.
I will continue to add to this playlist and listen to it when I’m feeling down or stressed out. Ha. twenty one pilots reference. And I hope it can provide some encouragement to the rest of you out there.
I know I’m not the only one making a post about the end of the year, and the fact that I’m not being original makes me feel lazy, but I really don’t care.
apologies once again for being absent for so long! I lost track of time and other things have been vying for my attention.
Early this year I gave myself a set of goals. I wanted to 1) be published and 2) get a job. (I also had a goodreads goal of finishing 100 books and I finally completed that today)
I have a job, but I am no closer to having published a book now than I was a year ago. And that’s a reason why I have been absent on this blog.
Writing no longer seems to be my passion. I love doing it, but the stories no longer come to me as easily, and I’d much rather make a point by writing a long detailed essay instead of telling it through story. I’ve also switched my focus to psychology, and because Write Whatever is a blog about writing, I felt like I couldn’t talk about my life and everything that is going on.
But that’s going to change. I won’t get a new blog, but I’m thinking of changing the name of this one. I will be sharing writing (if I ever finish anything), but I’ll also just be blogging about life, fun things I’ve done, lessons I’ve learned, and books I’ve read.
2018 is a year for new beginnings, new mistakes, and new adventures.
I’m not making any goals because I’m not going to be the same person at the end of 2018 as the person I am today. And that’s a wonderful thing to think about.
Happy Blogiversary to me! Apparently, today, 365 days ago, I started my blog.
*throws confetti**slices cake*
Yay! It’s hard to believe that it’s been that long. Though it does simultaneously feel like it’s been longer than that.
(I’m still freaking out that 2017 is almost halfway over. Based on my productivity, it should be July at least)
It’s hard to believe that a year ago I was considering being published by the end of ’17, had no idea I wanted to do with my life (considering a gap year), and hadn’t even considered reading 100 books in a year.
However, I have come very far since then, now that I’m thinking about it. I got my driver’s license, took a college class and loved it, got a job, decided what I want to do with my life, and am currently taking college classes.
So, as for blogging, I haven’t been as consistent as I would like to be, school and my job taking up a lot of my time. But, I’ve published 46 posts, have 37 followers, and consistent views. It makes me so happy to know people like my stuff.
I’m not really doing anything to celebrate this blogiversary besides writing this post. I’m not a big party person.
But, today I’m going to celebrate all you wonderful people who follow me and bother reading my writing and rambling, whether you’re my friend in real life, friend over the internet (which I guess is still real life…), or someone I’ve never met before. I love you guys and wish you the best in your own lives and hope you reach your own goals successfully ❤
I did not mean to neglect posting for two weeks (or however long it’s been).
I’m not going to apologize, no one seems overly concerned, and it’s my blog so I can do what I want, but what I want is to be more consistent in my posting schedule.
It’s going to be hard to try to write consistently, but as my mid year resolution, I promise to post once a week if I can (though I might take a hiatus during November).
Truth be told though, I’ve suddenly been overwhelmed by the amount of things I need to do. Last month, I would have told you that I would take a gap year and make money for college while trying to finish a book and get published.
Plans have changed.
A month later, I am about to start my education with Lumerit. I’m going to be studying psychology (is anyone surprised?). Also, I am writing a Snow White retelling for the Five Poisoned Apples contest and currently it’s trying to become a novel instead of the maximum 20,000 words. Also, I’m working 20+ hours a week and am trying to read 100 books this year. (66 finished so far:) ) (and I created a bookstagram account). Life got really crazy really fast.
Long story short, I am about to become a poor college student living off of ramen (jk) and Chick-fil-A (most likely) and trying to find time for writing between reading and working.
Sorry for telling you everything about my life there, but that’s my excuse for not posting in a while.
Wait I thought I wasn’t going to apologize…
So, goodbye for now. See y’all soon. 😀
(I think my next post will be about my Snow White retelling, so stay tuned in for that!)
Forgive me for being gone for so long, but I come back with a newly discovered hobby/talent.
I discovered that I like photography. I’m not very good at it (yet), but I’m sure with practice I might become okay.
Twenty four days ago, I got a phone. His name is Sam, and he’s an iPhone SE, therefore he has a better camera than my iPod 4, James, or my sister’s iPhone 4. So, the natural thing to do with a better camera is to go out and take pictures.
On Monday, my sister and I took two friends to Lititz Springs Park and, while the sun was setting, we took pictures and had a good time.
Some pictures turned out very well (at least, in my opinion). The sun was setting which was a good opportunity for me to play around with lighting, something I’ve never really bothered with before.
Thank goodness my sister is a willing model. I never look this good in pictures. We didn’t get a lot of pictures–we only had so much time that we could spend in the park–but I am extremely glad that we went.
Now, before I claim to be the only one with an interest in photography within my immediate friend group, it needs to be mentioned that my sister has been interested for a lot longer than I have been and she loves taking nature photos and playing around with poses and setting. Neither of us claim the title of photographer. Though I say she’s better.
And yeah. I’m just writing all these words because I need filler in order to avoid a big photo dump. Though if all you’re here for is the pictures, than by all means, skip the text.
<– Vic is a Ravenclaw, so is Olivia, and Elizabeth is a Hufflepuff. So, as the only Gryffindor in the group, I had to pose with the lion. –>Top: Elizabeth. Left: Vic. Right: Olivia. Bottom: Me.
And now it’s time for the part of the show where we show bloopers:
Left: We found a dead body. JK. Center: Olivia and Victoria take a ride on the Chummy Express. Right: Elizabeth gives Victoria a beard.
Another thing I’ve recently begun to enjoy is photo editing. I’ve been using Pixlr to edit photos for months now and, lo and behold, they have an app so I’m able to edit my photos on my phone. It has tons of filters, overlays, borders, stickers, and fonts. It’s so much fun playing around with pictures and trying out all the different effects.
Left: I upped the saturation and contrast (this is Vic’s favorite) Center: the original. Right: I used the “Splash” tool. (this is my favorite)
Now, for this picture, I had an idea in my head. I wanted a picture of me holding my hand out, basically saying “Nope” “Go away” “Talk to the Hand” “Stop”. A wee bit emo, I admit, but I’m proud of how it turned out after I edited it.
The center is the original. I didn’t like how dark the background was and how the light wasn’t as bright as I was hoping it would be. So, I edited it. The one on the left I did first. I like the colors, though i think I overdid the blur. The one on the right is my attempt to make it brighter and more how I was imagining it in my head. I can’t decide which edit is my favorite.
Anyway, thanks for reading and looking at my pictures!
I’m excited for another beautiful people since I missed the last few and ~voila~ this month it’s about authors so I don’t have to decide which character to do mine about. Choosing between characters is like choosing a favorite child.
Does this also mean I’m beautiful? *hopefully crosses fingers*
Anyway. Here goes.
Introducing me, the author.
How do you decide which project to work on?
Well, it is a complicated sort of decisions. First I decide based on what I should be working on (usually something I have hopes of publishing) and then go and work on something else. #procrastination
2. How long does it usually take you to finish a project?
Honestly, it depends. My very first novel took me two years, my second one about a year and a half, my third a year, and my fourth one month (my first NaNo). I haven’t finished a novel since NaNo ’15. Short stories, on the other hand, take anywhere from thirty minutes to two years to complete.
3. Do you have any routines to put you in the writing mood?
Freewriting about worldbuilding or character motivations often gives me motivation to work on the actual project. Sometimes I’ll also get in the mood after watching a good movie or listening to an interesting song.
4. What time of day do you write best?
The evening. I am a night owl through and through and will do anything to avoid going to bed.
5. Are there any authors you think you have a similar style to?
Not…really. I don’t think I’ve fully developed my “writing voice”, so it fluctuates from project to project. Though I’ve really been impressed by the style of C. S. Lewis, Anne Elisabeth Stengl, and Markus Zusak, so my style might borrow from theirs.
6. Why did you start writing, and why do you keep writing?
I started because my friend had written a novel and it sounded like fun. I scrapped a few plots and first chapters, then found a good starting point and never really stopped. I keep writing because I think, once I become better, I’ll be able to share through my stories. I want to give people something they will enjoy and show them the things I’ve learned through the challenges my characters face.
7. What’s the hardest thing you’ve written?
Research papers for school. Those are really really hard because you have to research everything and I hate research which is why I do not write historical fiction.
8. Is there a project you want to tackle someday but you don’t feel ready yet?
I want to write a musical soooooo bad. I don’t have any solid ideas yet, but it sounds like a lot of fun. You get to write dialogue, action, lyrics, and music. I’m just not ready yet because my music composition skills are rusty and I can’t rhyme to save my life.
I also want to write a screenplay. I feel more prepared to write a screenplay than I do to write a musical, but I just don’t have any solid ideas yet: just a few started projects that I am rather pleased with but ,sadly, very stuck in.
9. What writing goals did you make for 2017 and how are they going?
One of my two goals for this year is to publish a book.
I don’t know if that’s going to happen. I haven’t been focusing on a project in particular.
But, my other goals for this year are to complete all the NaNos, and so far I managed to complete April’s goal. So far June is a bit rocky, but I’m hoping to catch up soon.
Also, my goal is to finish at least one entry for the Five Poisoned Apples contest. I have two ideas so hopefully I will be able to complete this.
10. Describe your writing process in 3 words or a gif!
So, I hope y’all liked that!
Let me know your own answer to question #8 in the comments. That’s a really good question. I like that one.